Not so tough

Looking over my last blog, a WHOLE YEAR AGO! I realized that I sound so high and mighty and so condescending that it is ridiculous!

Not really. Sometimes, a lot of times, I am so dumb. God has to really grab me and tell me that I need Him, and that is all that is going to work in a Christian's life. He speaks gently, though. He shares how I have to forgive, even if I can't forget. I can do no less.... even if I scream, I WANT TO BE ANGRY FROM NOW TO ETERNITY!

I can't get away with that.

My father-in law has alzheimer's, as I have previously written, and sometimes I get very ANGRY at him!
He is grouchy, mean, and of course, can't reason things out well. He can't comprehend the meaning of
of our statements, he is hard of hearing, doesn't want to wear his hearing aides,

Coulda woulda shoulda

What is it like to waste time?  Everyone will give a different answer. Can time be wasted? I guess everyone who lost a loved one would say yes.  It seems like there would have been so much  more to share with that one.  More time, more effort, more love....  

But in God's time-  if we follow His will and use His time wisely we will have no regrets.  Are all perfect?  No.  Not me, anyway!

God has even set us in this place and time. This era, this family, this economy, this country. 

How do you feel when you waste time?  Well, if you are like me, you would say you don't feel much of anything!  You've spent time spacing out, doing whatever you want-  automatic behaviors.

I'm not suggesting we sit still or work hard just to say we are not wasting time. Just be more aware of it. God gave us the time we have. Use it wisely.

That's life

Hey- life gets complicated, but God is in control, and somehow that makes life simpler. You know that when God takes care of things, He takes care of them really well! No need to fear, God is near. He knows all our needs and He cares more about us than anyone else ever could. So He works things out for His honor and for our good. Sometimes that requires more patience than we think we have... but the fact that we HAVE to wait... creates patiences somehow. Ever stomped your foot, or rocked your leg back and forth waiting for Him to act? He must really think we are still babies when we do that. Haven't we learned yet that He is to be trusted at ALL TIMES and in EVERY SITUATION? Rest it that. Put it on your pillow and go to sleep. Tomorrow you can do the same.

GOD IS GOOD!

What do I deal with every day? Some say they don't see how I do it.

Let's see:

My Own Health - Fibromyalgia, Psoriasis, Psoriatic Arthritis, Bipolar Disorder, Asthma- Other various health problems.

Then there are my kids- Oldest son has Asperger's Syndrome, Daughter #1 is a lesbian, Son #2
is borderline ADHD, and dyslexic, but very artisitc, Daughter #2 has borderline personality disorder and anxiety.

Mental health doesn't look good. Especially when you're a Christian.

Also, my family moved in with my father-in-law who has Alzheimer's Disease. I am his primary care taker.

I am also a pastor's wife.

Well, this blog is not to bemoan my problems. It is to give God the glory of His unending grace that leads me constantly to Him for help.

"From whence cometh my help? My help cometh from the Lord who made heaven and earth"

Where else would you get such help"

Well, I know that other's have it worse than myself. I know that God is for me- who can be against me?
I hope that I can be of some help and encouragement to others who feel that they are weak and unable to handle their situations. Please blog me with your comments!

Answers to prayer

Praise God for He is good. His mercy endures to all generations, His grace reaches to the clouds. He is our help in time of trouble. The Lord will set me up upon a rock.

The Lord kept me up all night Tuesday night, working on issues in my life that I struggled with. He is so good. I got a 2 hour nap, and felt great with a clear conscience and clean pages for the future.

Now I look forward to what He will do.

Hope you look to Him as well, and find His comforting arms as you yield to Him.

Struggles

I have a lot on my mind. My husband is working a new job, and our schedules have all changed. The summer break is coming up, and I won't be working in the summer (I work at a school). God will help me (us), I know He is there. I am waiting on him, but I am still struggling while the transition is taking place.

Our kids are struggling too, with their faith and emotional issues.

Sometime all will be made right.

Living by faith

What happens when the rug is pulled from underneath you?
How do you deal when everything hits you?
What is the answer for a broken heart?
Learning to walk by faith, and not by sight.

This past few months has been a very bumpy ride for my family and I. With a teen in trouble, and having few resources to help, we look to the Lord for our resource, our strength, and our wisdom.

Have faith when all goes awry!
Don't hit the dirt and cry!
Faith in God is what we need
Look to Him, and plans succeed.